Wow, 30 weeks. That sounds nice and heavy right? Has some weight to it. 10 weeks to go, give or take a couple. Well, I’m technically 30weeks2days which means my countdown is now in the single digits. Still crazy surreal. I thought for sure it would feel “real” now. Sometimes it does. I had a dream I took her to my old office to visit my former co-workers. I don’t want to get a 3d/4d ultrasound; I want her face to be a surprise.
A recently revived thread in my loss group reminded me of how far we’ve come in this pregnancy. I had forgotten how much Minicorn stressed me out! Questionable HCG numbers, random bleeding episodes, the cyst on the umbilical cord….not to mention the shitty diet, daily vomiting and nausea, deadly constipation…wow. I really believe in that evolution theory of pregnancy; that women tend to black it out and “forget” so they’ll do it all again. Lawd.
Check-up this week, the first of my every 2 week check-ups….working on my list of questions. So far, all I have is whether the midwives support eating/drinking in labor if I need something (the hospital does).
Thanks for all your helpful replies on my last post. My mom will be available as back-up help no matter when Crabby goes back to work; we just need to figure out what would be the best time FOR HIM to be at home with the baby. I’m leaning more toward the beginning, for bonding purposes and adjustment. It would be nice for him to be home during the holidays though (when she’ll be about 1 month and older). Decisions.
Just trying to get organized and prepared as much as possible while I still can. Being reflective and in the moment as much as I can. Marveling at this belly and the linea negra. Wondering if Minicorn will be a chill baby. Her patterns of movement are at a peak when I first wake up, after meals, and when I lie down at night. Other random “fuck yo couch” kicks just to let me know what’s up. What will she be like?