Another month, another “failed” cycle of trying to conceive. As usual, when I realize it hasn’t happened I cry, I get down, I feel tired, I feel hopeless, defeated, etc. Then, I start focusing on what to do the next cycle.
A major benefit of charting while trying to conceive is I have learned so much about how my body and cycle works. I also figure out before my period is due whether or not I got pregnant, without needing to take a pregnancy test. All from charting.
So my period hasn’t come yet but I know it’s over this month because of my temperature. If you ever want to know more about charting just e-mail me, not going to do a thesis on it this post. But I’ve been researching stuff and I think I may have figured out why I am having trouble conceiving. The remedy?
Evening Primrose Oil supplements. I linked a website explaining it if you care to read about it. Also, isn’t that “Free pack of baby dust with each order” at the top of the page creepy? The fuck is “baby dust”? Is there a collection of baby skin peelings that they scoop into a bag and mail you, like the bulk bins at Whole Foods? Gross.
ANYWAY I’m getting a little excited because everything I’ve read about the benefits of Evening Primrose Oil match what I am experiencing. A bell rang in my head when I saw something about extreme PMS and having a lack of certain essential fatty acids. Y’all when my period comes, I die for about 2 days. Crawling on the floor dying type cramps. I don’t have fibroids or endometriosis, so when I read that a lack of certain essential fatty acids cause extreme PMS and that 1 of the benefits of Evening Primrose Oil is that it eases PMS symptoms? SOLD. Also, it mentions it increases fertile cervical fluid which I don’t seem to produce. This is not the same thing as arousal fluid, which you produce when
it’s time to get thangs crackin …you’re aroused, I got that on lock already. This is specifically cervical fluid that provides an ideal environment for sperm to swim all up in your nooks and crannies looking for the egg; you should see an abundance during the few days you are fertile each month. Lack of that specific type of cervical fluid or an abundance of what they call “hostile” cervical fluid can prevent sperm from swimming where they need to go, or the sperm won’t survive as long.
So Imo pick up some capsules at Whole Foods today and see how it goes. If Minicorn 2.0 shows up because of this, just know I’ll be sitting in a big twirly chair in the shadows smirking saying things like MM-HMM with a gold Jesus piece on. Or something like that.